An E-mail to Bess

bess. hello. i just got your texts. i am updating my blog. i cant believe you were in the hospital. that scares me. are you okay? what happened specifically? dont quit your job -- you've put so much into it. are you unhappy with your job, or with school? ps, i like your hair, but i only saw one pic... so yeah, couples therapy tomorrow. im doing therapy at asu. i have a doctoral student who is doing a study on his findings. im gold to him. GOLD!!!!!!! a girl with so many issues. le sigh. i miss facebook. i dont want to be the girl with so many issues. i want to be *******. so a lot has happened. sydney -- one of chris's best friends who lives in georgia for now -- hates me and doesnt think im in love with chris, otherwise i wouldnt do this action. (i imed dher on aim last night.) this concerns me. sean is out of the picture. i told him to get over me and that i could never build a relationship upon a torrid past and a foundation where cheating was concerned. on voicemail. twas harsh, but needed to be said. i dont know if he got the job. dawn cant afford him right now, so i think shell contract him for our web site and some strangling ads -- otherwise, he didnt. she thinks hes too young. anyway, if sean did get the job i would quit. i lied and told everyone that sean found a job online lalalalalalal. really i called him. god, what the fudge was i thinking? bess, help. what do you think? i think that everything is just ahhh people are looking at my dress. (from old navy) wink! My gut is hanging out *wink!!!! anywayzzzz!!! i like this new show called skins. its on bbc america and the kid from about a boy is one of the main characters, along with ginny from hp. theyre so sexy!!!!! mollys bday party is soon. she likes jordan (through text, it goes straight to korean. that cracks me up. so, chris and i are together since last tuesday. i got yelled at in the best way ever. he yelled at me as a best friend. "where's your integrity? id like to know, as a friend, that i have rubbed off on you. i want you to go away with this relationship with something, so tell me the truth." and i told him. and i think he understood. i just wish that people saw the way chris and i were. they way we used to be. instead, im the girl with issues. who is "nuts" and a "whore." ha -- i never thought i would be this person. im done. im going to walk to class now... even though it's at two. i like to get there early so people don't take my seat. love, *******!!!!!!!!!